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Acting Black, Acting White by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Acting Black, Acting White

The confusion, Growing up With the palest skin Of anyone you know (outside your family). When you walk To the back of the bus As a young kid And hear word's You can't say. This word you Don't even understand, Except that you're The only kid who CANNOT Say it. When they say it, It means friend, But if you do It's the dirtiest word You could utter. You don't know how you know this. No one told you. But you know. And you know It has something to do With your pale GermanIrishItalian skin. The confusion, Years later, After you learn the truth Behind the word You can't, won't speak. When you meet People looking Mo

Jealousy by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Jealousy

Tell me, how can a voice so sweet say word's that are so sour? How're you the same person I had on the phone an hour, ago. Oh no, where'd the love go? One passing comment you become a girl I don't know. "Well who is she?" "And who was he?" Accusations from our own insecurities. Doubting love's purity. Fights over slights past lovers threw at me. Threw at you. Nothing either of us would do, But still we dwell on the imagined pain we're being put through. That ugly green monster rears it's head like Fenway. Asking stupid questions like "Yeah, but how long has he BEEN gay?" 10:30 calling and opening with "Didn't you say ten babe?"

Flurried FOR HOPE by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Flurried FOR HOPE

The flurry Seems hurried, But erratic as it floats. I wonder "What's the rush?" Don't they know their fate? To be A thing of beauty Canvasing the world. Their days Won't be long, (In a cosmic sense of course). At best They'll be Buried in their brethren; Or flow Rather than blow Within a couple days. They should enjoy What they have While they have it in their grasp, Because each flake Was so unique, But each drop of water looks the same.

Echoinflation song by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Echoinflation song

Lonely again, I picture you in someone else's arms While I dream it's you in mine. Without a friend, Infatuation finds a stranger To pass it's time. It's not the end, It's an intermission To get you off my mind Till I pull myself out of that role like an actor calling "Line!" So I play pretend, Act like without you I can be fine. The moment spent Without you Is a moment I never thought I'd find. Around the bend We'll be together But this distance is a crime, Robbing us from one another like the moon robs the sun's shine. If I won't see you anyway, I wish I could be blind, So I wouldn't have to witness young lovers inter

Stimulating Depressants by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Stimulating Depressants

I need this depressant to improve my mood Cause each shot is another thought subdued. Orange juice and vodka when my mind is screwed, Drives me sane, overtakes my brain like the booze led a coup. Don't care what's in it just pass the drank, Need to get fucked up till my mind goes blank. In fact, I got some weed so now I think (pron: thank) I need to cash a bowl like I'm at a bank. Now I'm sober enough to still feel a need To further inebriate myself till my limbs give heed. But I'm drunk enough that I actually feel (pron: fill) It's a good idea when a guy starts taking pills That I should follow suit and swallow a few, With no id

Stuck in the Grey by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Stuck in the Grey

Hugging a curb of a well-traveled road That I've been up and down a time or two. My back's breaking under my heavy load And the soles of my feet are burning holes in my shoes. I can tell by their stares that the driver's going by See me walking crooked and paint a picture in their mind Of a no-account vagabond, speck in God's eye, Not worth the O2 it takes to stay alive. Most days I'd argue, but today I know you're right. I'm so busy in flight cause heart's lost all fight. My bravado is gone, my soul's been deflated, And this shit that I'm on no longer makes me elated. And as bad as I want it, even though I've worked up the nerve,

I Don't Know by lovingangstaboy, literature

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I Don't Know

I don't know why it's so dark. I don't know why I can't sleep. I don't know why I'm alone Why you're not here with me. All I really know Baby I need you. This darkness darkness, it's smothering me. Thoughts so deep, I can't even breathe. The only sound, silence, I pray for a pin drop. Anything to break these echoing thoughts. End this cerebral monotony, Cause all that it's gotten me Is endless worry and a subconscious sodomy. I don't know why 99% of my own pain Is an inside job from in my own brain. I don't know why I lose two steps for every step that I gain, All I know is that I need you here to keep me sane. I flick on

Nietzsche is Dead by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Nietzsche is Dead

If man is made In the image of the Lord, Then every life you take Every soul buried in the floorboards, Crushed beneath your feet Is the God you claim to praise. If God is dead, It's because you drained his life away. These basic human rights: Life, liberty, and happiness, Take any of the three it puts the others under stress. Cause there's no point in a life If that life ain't worth livin. If your so buried under your strife That you can't even breath then it's a given That something's just not right. When you go to bed at night And you can't sleep, can't even close your eyes, Cause you feel Big Brother on ya like you can

The Weight of Words Can Crush by lovingangstaboy, literature

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The Weight of Words Can Crush

You are The frosting Of late April. Just as new life Begins In the husk Of a dead season, You will again Breathe death into this world. But once She said You called me Your life. Your sun. Yes, my sun. The bringer of life And light Which warmed my heart Until It thawed. But once thawed, Your heat Beat down And scorched the Earth. If my warmth Became too much, Must you fault me For loving you? He laughs What you call Love I call a pure Selfish need. You wanted to Love me And take my love, To please your Inner demands To be with somebody, Anybody. Why? Why would You say that? Because He re

The Women In His Life by lovingangstaboy, literature

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The Women In His Life

You were given a choice And you chose unselfishly That his life was worth Risking separation from your history. And with it, Destroying a promising future. And a tearing from your family That was well beyond sutures. You worked off your ass, To keep him in relative comfort Raised him to focus outside the past, Taught him he didn't have to live with his background's punctures. You often get the credit for his education, And that's something you deserve, Cause his life wasn't all vacation, But you got him through life's curves. But there's one bit of credit He hides even from you in his brain, The fact that he's only alive t

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Acting Black, Acting White by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Acting Black, Acting White

Jealousy by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Jealousy

Flurried FOR HOPE by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Flurried FOR HOPE

Echoinflation song by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Echoinflation song

Stimulating Depressants by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Stimulating Depressants

Stuck in the Grey by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Stuck in the Grey

I Don't Know by lovingangstaboy, literature

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I Don't Know

The Weight of Words Can Crush by lovingangstaboy, literature

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The Weight of Words Can Crush

The Women In His Life by lovingangstaboy, literature

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The Women In His Life

Fears of the Crutch by lovingangstaboy, literature

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Fears of the Crutch

She's gaining confidence. I wish she still relied on me. Isn't it fucked up How selfish one can be? Broken and dying, She needs my helping hand, But if I make her whole, Will I ever see her again? Once she sees Her own beauty, And she has no reason To come to me, Will she stay, and if so, Will it be out of duty? Will she love me when she sees She deserves more than I can be?

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Amazing Quotes by LeeGaaFangirl, literature

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Amazing Quotes

“We will sell our shadow to those who stand within it.” -Marilyn Manson "I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not." -Kurt Cobain "It erases everything I hate about myself. Nothing can hurt me. I feel completely invincible." -Gerard Way "It's better to burn out, than to fade out." -Kurt Cobain "And here, we... go!" -Joker "Why. So. Serious?" -Joker "Let's put a smile on the face." -Joker "Comeon. Hit me!"- Joker "You either die a hero. Or live long enough to see youself become the villian." -Harvey Dent (Batman Movie) "The reason I use a knife instead of a gun, is because a gun is too quick. You never get t

For Tim by liquidanxiety, literature

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For Tim

Chase down the nights when all you did was live. Nothing lasts forever, just ask the last flower of the season. Touching the hand of god just might be fiction. Writing your soul isn't a work of art, it's a struggle. Judged by everyone yet the person who cares the most will never read your words. They already know what's in your heart. You can run away from the words, but they catch up to you in the end. So spill your heart because no one will do it for you. A lesson learned in time, no secrets left unearthed. You inspire the words of others, never losing touch.

My Best Friend... by lovingangstaboy, literature

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My Best Friend...

Hello my friend, It's been far too long. Life's just not the same When I leave you alone. When I leave you lying Dressed in red on the floor, Or tuck you for weeks In a memory drawer. But back together, Back together again, There's a smile on my face, As you slide under my skin. Chorus: And no one has to know That you're back in my arms (whisper:)It'll be our little secret I no longer feel The pasts scars (whisper:)So let's make some new ones. Hello my friend. Let's repeat past mistakes. Now that you're back, Let's do what it takes For you to tear me open And tear us apart again, Long enough for me to heal Before som

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A Prayer For the Dead by lovingangstaboy, literature

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A Prayer For the Dead

Whether taken in cold blood, Or leaving on terms my own… Whether I leave with a shout and a clamor Or with no more than a moan, It does not matter… For the way I leave this world we're on Is not as important As what I leave once I'm gone. I pray that when I leave My memory will remain With times of love, times of joy, And times I eased your pain. When people speak of me In respectful whispered tones, I wish to be remembered for giving And never for serving only my own Needs and wants, But that I was always there for others. I pray that before I go, I make perfect peace with my brother. I pray that no grudge remains, That

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Current Residence: App State
Favourite genre of music: all music!
Favourite photographer: Yeom or Chelly
Favourite cartoon character: Cosmo from Fairly Oddparents
Personal Quote: "It's better to have loved and lost, then get run over by a steamroller"

Favourite Movies

Pulp Fiction... Fight Club... Crash...Donnie Darko...Requim for a Dream

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Alex! old Jewel

Favourite Writers

prolly Jewel

Favourite Games

Rock Band or Elder Scrolls Oblivion

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2/3

Other Interests

friends, writing, music

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lovingangstaboy

Mar 8, 2010

bye dA

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So I'm bouncing. I've not had time to pop onto this here site in awhile anyway, and even when I do I don't plan on posting anything new. So therefore, I am leaving dA. I'm keeping my page up and may come back once in a blue moon, but not often enough that you should look for me. If you want to stay in touch with me, you can add me on facebook. http://www.facebook.com/hotsosreis but if you do please remind me that I know you off dA and maybe tell me your dA name. I'll probably add you even if you don't, but I hate that moment of "Where the hell do I know this person from". Peace and Love, Tim

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lovingangstaboy

May 18, 2009

0 new deviations?!

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So, here's the thing... I haven't posted any new poems lately. However, I HAVE been writing. I'm sorry if you're looking for more from me, but I have been insanely proud of what I've written lately and... well... I've been trying to get it published in Poetry Magazine. This means that I can't publish any of the poems that I'm submitting anywhere else, including anywhere online. So that's what's going on for me artistically right now. OH! And I'm a member of Lyric at my school, which is a spoken word poetry club. We started the club in february and, among 100's of new clubs/organizations on the campus this year, we won the best new organizati

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lovingangstaboy

Jan 15, 2009

hello all my dear fans i dont deserve

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Yes, I'm trying to write more and more, and trying to keep dA updated on the newest and most up-to-date version of every song and poem I write. However, it has become apparent in the past year or so that, with the little amount of time I actually spend in front of a computer, I watch and am watched by too many people to keep up with all of you successfully. I peruse your galleries from time-to-time. Look at new things when you post them every once in awhile. But I do not look at everything. And I do not comment anymore. You have all been extremely loyal to me since I started this account, and I feel I owe you more. I truly appreciate when yo

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ICHITO13

May 27, 2008

PLEASE READ THE WHOLE THING. ITS SO DANG TRUE*

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they dont like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you dont even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably wont get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great. Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will find you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 relationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!!!!! send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it works.... but if you break the chain.. you will be cursed w/ relationship problem